May Reflection // 2020 πŸŒ™

Hey popcorns! 🍿

I’m sorry No, I am not starting a post with that! Last week was a super hectic week being the first week back of online school and I still managed to keep (fairly) updated with comments and posts but me posting was just completely off my radar, and there’s no need for me to already apologise at the start of the post!

I will be posting the KIP Prologue this Friday, I have so many posts that I’m just itching to write but also a pile of awards that won’t stop shouting at me β€˜Amber, write us! Amber, we’ve been sitting in your drafts for decades, it’s starting to get boring around here…’ I really need to stop writing posts late at night πŸ˜‚

I was so tempted to skip May Reflection because today is the 8th of June and it feels like reflecting on May now is taking a step backwards in the wrong direction but at the same time these posts really help me to just summarise things and honestly just share stuff stuff? Really Amber, I think five year olds have a better vocabulary than that with you guys! πŸ’•

Now, before we jump into this crazy post it’s late okay? πŸ˜† I just wanted to say that I am in total support of the BLM cause, but I will not be posting any posts related to this on my blog because I feel all the posts I’ve read have just said it so much better than I have so please, if you are unsure of what is happening and honestly just want to read these incredible bloggers’ impactful and eye-opening posts on this matter please go read: Elsie’s post , Bayance’s post and Arshia’s post.

I thought each post brought a different view on what is happening right now and I highly recommend you read at least one of them.


My followers have been growing a lot lately and it’s lovely interacting with different blogs in the blogosphere, thank you so much again guys for sticking with me through my hiatus, through my excuses, I honestly think blogging has had such a positive impact on my life and I am so thankful for all of you! πŸ™

Now this post is probably already 1k words so let’s jump straight into this reflection… ☺️

Background image credits: Google

I really can’t decide whether I like or dislike online school, like there are so many pros (waking up 0 minutes before it starts LOL) but then I really wish life was normal at the same time. I’m moving to a new school at the end of this year (thank gosh my best friend is moving with me!) and I might end up missing the transition because of covid-19 (it doesn’t even deserve a capital letter *death stares*) so at the moment I’m just like if I pinch myself will I wake up from this?! Nothing is really new about school so not much to say about this one! Moving on…

As you can see above in my cover image it says β€˜discovering the meaning of life’ which I decided I’d leave up to Ghandi πŸ˜‚ I quote Elsie here but time really did β€˜leave the chat’, like I did workout everyday so that took a lot of time away from me but I felt like I barely wrote any more of my novel, had so many blog posts that went unposted and basically had a mini meltdown?! Well I got pretty obsessed with to-do lists and it basically started to feel like my whole life was a to-do list which is sooo wrong so I started making β€˜my week at a glance’ lists and honestly they work so much for me and I highly recommend them to anyone who feels like daily to-do lists are too intense and stressful. This post went from positive to negative faster than I could say pessimistic, sorry guys!!

I love this section, let’s go for it!

Skincare By Hyram YouTube Challenge was my go-to in May, I learnt so much about skincare from him and just how minimalism is key, the less the better. He makes me laugh so hard and he’s just so honest, I highly recommend checking out his channel if skincare is one of your interests an passions! Or if you are interested in learning more about skincare as a whole.

Finishing all 8 seasons of The Vampire Diaries I finished it (I think I finished it in June but let’s pretend I finished it in May πŸ˜‚) and man that show was e v e r y t h i n g. It pulled on my heartstrings like nothing before and the ending ahhh. I wasn’t sobbing but there were tears rolling down my cheeks because I’ve been watching that show ongoing for over a year and I feel like I’ve bonded with the characters except Elena the wet lettuce like so much and the fact that I don’t get to see that again? *dramatically sobs this time*

Opening up to people! I finally learnt to open up to my best friend a lot more, and vice versa for her. Every time I felt sad or angry or just needed to talk to her I just called or messaged her and she did the same and it felt so nice because when I feel threatened or a negative emotion I climb into my shell and stay there for a while. It’s not my fault I’m a Cancer and a crab πŸ˜‚ It’s my instinct to deal with my problems on my own but it’s so much easier relying on other people, trust is everything guys and it’s okay to take that risk and trust some knowing they may hurt you but it’s also okay to rely on yourself because let’s be honest, you are the only person who’s guaranteed not to let yourself down.

Favourite quote! Honestly this completely goes against what I was saying before but at the same time it doesn’t, because it’s all about finding a balance. I just want you all to know that it’s okay to vibe on your own, to be happy by yourself, to be your own partner in crime because especially in lockdown (kinda, uh I don’t even know anymore) we’ve been spending a lot more time thinking, may it be good or bad and this really quote just had me thinking, then I watched a video of a girl dancing in the rain on her own with a smile on her face saying how good it is to be your own sunshine and it hit me. Hard. You don’t always need people, don’t underestimate yourself because that is not okay, so be your own happiness!! β˜€οΈ

I managed to publish Knowledge Is Power blurb, and

  • Managed to publish Knowledge Is Power blurb (click HERE)
  • Hit 100 followers on my lil’ corner of the web
  • Interacted with a lot of bloggers and felt like. Found a lot of new blogs this month!
  • Was nominated for a lot of awards and tags (y’all too sweet) and actually managed to log them o I remember to post them?!
  • Found a posing schedule that (kinda) works for me
  • Posted 5 times that month, not bad!


This post was fun to write too, glad you guys enjoyed it πŸ’•


It was really nice to write a recipe post in this format and I loved hearing what people had to say in the comments! πŸ’–

This basically consists of mini reviews, instead of doing full reviews ( I only do them if I love the book or feel the need to rant about it) and I hope you guys enjoying reading short reviews instead, if you’re more interested in longer ones let me know ✨

Also I read 7 books in May! Two of them were on Wattpad and were so good but I decided not to do a review of them on here so only five reviews here πŸ’•

It took me a while to get into these short stories as the writing could be quite dense and boring sometimes but once I got into the stories I generally loved reading and understand more of Magnus’ character and it reawakened my love for the Malec ship, they are just ADORABLE!! πŸ₯°

Hex Hall is sooo good, I’m desperate to get my hands on the next books in the series but am struggling to them for a cheap price but man this book looked so basic and I didn’t have high hopes for it but the slow (or fast if you ask me) burn romance, the characters, the plot twist… read it!!

This series was my childhood favourite and I just had to finish it! I remember the library not having the remaining two books hen I was younger and I wa so upset, I swore I’d buy them whenever I could but years, after and I still hadn’t read them! The writing was so basic and the the characters just weren’t realistic at all! It was nice to nearly finish the series though 😌

This was the last book in the series and pretty much the same as what I said up above πŸ’“

This series has been ongoing for about a year and half, I’m on the second to last book and I just feel like I need to finish it because my love for the characters is starting to burn out and I’m losing hope for them but I’m sure the last book will be a killer read! ✨

May goals: 9.5/10

  1. Stick to my fizz free May challenge (no fizzy drinks) βœ”οΈ I stayed off them for 6 weeks!
  2. Practice yoga at least 2x a week βœ”οΈ did it nearly everyday!
  3. Maintain screen time tracker, mood tracker and Italian studies tracker βœ”οΈ yes but Italian is a no go
  4. Keep on eating healthily βœ”οΈ still had treats but cut out the junk food a lot more!
  5. Workout/run/weight lift 5x a week βœ”οΈ did some form of intense exercise everyday ⭐️
  6. Project Focus βœ”οΈ
  7. Read 3 books βœ”οΈ show some higher expectations Amber πŸ˜‚
  8. Hair mask 1x a week βœ”οΈ
  9. Less than 3 hours a day on my phone using Forest app βœ”οΈ 0.5, a few days exceeded
  10. Bake blueberry muffins ❌ I lost the craving for them!

June goals

  1. Carry on using my workout routine and mood tracker
  2. Blog 6 times (3 of them will be KIP posts)
  3. Read 4 books
  4. Start the 1.5 litre water consumption a day challenge
  5. Give myself a break once in a while
  6. Find healthy snack alternatives
  7. Fizzy drinks on Fridays

I need to get some sleep so hope you enjoyed learning all about my May, I’ll try get June’s Reflection out a bit more quickly! Sorry about being inactive on my blog I’m going to try my best over the next couple of weeks to stick to this schedule πŸ’•

How was your May? Was it just one of those months? Are you having a good June?


29 thoughts on “May Reflection // 2020 πŸŒ™

  1. Congratulations on 100 followers!! βœ¨πŸ’• So lovely that throughout May you opened up more to your friend! you’re right, instinct is to keep it all in but it’s great to speak about it with a loved one as a problem shared is definitely a problem halved! I used to think that I was being a bit of a burden but I’ve come to realize that this isn’t true and it was just a mindset in the way of me talking about how I was feeling and making things better in the long run. Love your favourite quote too β˜€οΈ will have to write that one down for the board in my room as I want some nice quotes to see straight away when I wake up πŸ’« You did so well with your goals! πŸ‘ Best of luck with your June ones, I really need to find healthy snacks too. I don’t eat unhealthily as such but I would like to have some ideas in mind so that I don’t always go in the direction of bad stuff πŸͺ Great post! ❀️❀️

    1. Thank you so much Elsie! πŸ’– Yes it really was. Agreed, my initial reaction is to keep it private but then I just overthink it all πŸ˜‚ I am so glad you realise you are not a burden, because people want to see the negatives of your life and the positives 😊 Thank you! That is such an amazing idea, you definitely should! I love that! ☺️ Awh thank youuu ✨ Ah yes! Same here it just feels like if I don’t eat healthy snacks then I end up skipping snack all together and that’s not too great for my body haha! πŸ’– Thank you πŸ™‚

  2. omg Amber congrats on 100 followers!! i’m so happy for you – you totally deserve it and more. πŸ₯°πŸ₯° and ugh, covid-19 definitely does not deserve a capital letter :(( but good luck with moving to a new school! ahh i love Hyram’s channel as well, he’s such a funny and genuine person and he’s honestly been saving my skin! πŸ˜…

    it’s so great that you and your friend were able to open up to one another 😊 and aw that quote is so beautiful and motivating, i love it!! i haven’t heard of any of the books you read this month lol, but it’s so great that you were able to finish childhood favorites!

    good luck with your June goals – you got this! i loved reading this wrapup, hope you’re having a great June ❀❀

    1. Thank you so much Ash! πŸ’“ That means so much to me 😌 Tell me about it 😦 Thanks so much eeek orally not freaking out here or anything!! He is amazing right?! My skin has never been so good πŸ˜† I swear when I started his channel my skincare routine literally did a full 180 πŸ˜‚

      Thank you, it really is! I’m glad you love it ☺️ Awh no worries maybe next month you might recognise some! Yes I was so happy to finish it, it really felt like a loose knot πŸ˜‚

      Thanks so much!! I hope so πŸ˜‚ That means so much to me Ash, you too!! 😊

    β€˜Amber, write us! Amber, we’ve been sitting in your drafts for decades, it’s starting to get boring around here…’ OKAY I LITERALLY RELATE SM 🀣 i think you know what i'm talking about *cough cough* but i have a tip: just don't stress about it, to be honest nobody tracks who did their tags and who didn't LMAO. (i think??? maybe people do? sorry i'm not helping XD)
    see, this is why i read your posts: "it doesn’t even deserve a capital letter" THIS IS GOLD. I-
    okay enough screaming, have an awesome June :)))

      HAHA! I’m so glad that it’s not just me because like sometimes it feels like those tags literally death stare me every time I go into drafts πŸ˜‚ Oh yes you did a tag week that must have been so helpful! Yes honestly true that but this bloggers keeps tagging me like very week and I’m just like β€˜I got no time for this’ πŸ˜‚ I mean I don’t but maybe they do?! Eh they’re disappointed in me!
      Haha! I am glad you find my posts humouring πŸ˜‚ Yes even I must say that was pure gold that line!!
      Haha I saw a post pop up from you so I’m reading now, thank you, you too!! ::

      1. EXACTLY!! Like honestly tags aren’t the most fun to write so I don’t want to keep posting them, but I KEEP GETTING TAGGED!! which is frustrating sjsjsj πŸ˜‚
        yesssssssss πŸ˜‰ ah thank uuu!

        1. No, agreed!! The formatting is just gahhh! Haha yes I feel like I need to have a massive banner β€˜DO NOT TAG MEEEE’ πŸ˜‚

  4. AHHHHH, I can’t believe your finished TVD!!! What are your thoughts!!!!!! (sorry, excuse my fangirling). The ending was extremely frustrating and sad for me because, for one thing, Bonnie deserved so much more!!! Bonnie does EVERYTHING for everyone for eight seasons and she couldn’t get a happily ever after. I was semi-happy that Elena left for the last two seasons because then they got to develop other characters and I have to ask now favorite season? Also, how did Matt survive?! To this day that continues to stump me πŸ™‚ hehe

    1. I KNOW RIGHT!! It’s so crazy!! πŸ’• You are totally excused because I’m fangirling too!! The ending was frustrating and I felt like there was not enough said and then at the same time there was?! Like ah I was so messed up! AHH AGREED!! Bonnie literally comes second on my favourite female characters for that show (Caroline first πŸ˜‚) and Bonnie literally gives up her magic, literally her whole life and happiness for them and she gets no happy ever after πŸ˜– Yes at first when Elena was put into a magical coma I was like β€˜oh no the main character literally died how can this show go on?!’ But I agree, I understood the characters so much more because the show focused on the others and I have to admit it is a draw between season 3 & 7 like ahh I really loved the season with the Sirens!! OH MY GOSH EXACTLY!! Like seriously- he’s the only human who has literally not a. Died. or b. Turned into a vampire since series 1!! Like seriously how?! Thank you so much for this lovely comment!! But when Stefan sacrifices himself 😭 Like what the heck whyyyy?!

      1. I knowww….. either Damon or Stephan sacrificing themselves would have been sad but, its sad that Stephan dies because he believes( which is partly true) that he made his brother into the monster that he is and wants his brother to have his redemption with elena.Caroline is such a great character and she had such a big arc from season one to the last season . While I wasn’t a big fan of Caroline with Stephan, I still liked their friendship developing in the later seasons. Season three is my favorite as well but, your right the whole siren plot in was very intriguing. And omg, Katherine at the end!πŸ˜‚πŸ˜œ
        This video basically summarizes what I think of Matt lasting that long πŸ˜‚….

        1. Yes agreed, but Stefan doing it just so sad πŸ˜– Yes it is partly true but at the same time being a vampire doesn’t change you but instead exaggerates you right? Yes she did, totally agreed! Ah yes I never was really too sure how I felt about Stefan and Caroline, they just didn’t click. Yes! It really was. My gosh yes I’m so glad Katherine came back because she was such a bad ass πŸ˜‚
          Haha checking it out now!

          1. Heheheh, yep the video I just found hilarious bc that’s exactly what I think of MattπŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ Glad I’m not the only one who felt that Stefan and Caroline weren’t all that great. Everyone else seems to love them both, idkπŸ€·β€β™€οΈ

            1. Yes my gosh I watched it and I couldn’t stop laughing! I feel like I could label what each of those cards were πŸ˜‚ Yes agreed, it was always Stefan and Elena for me but then she got with Damon and I was like β€˜you say WHAT?’ πŸ˜‚

  5. Congratulations on getting 100 followers that’s amazing πŸ’• from what I’ve seen of your blog so far it’s definitely so well deserved though!!
    I’m glad you managed to open up to your friend and vice versa. It’s good to have someone to talk things through with as it’s so easy to spin things round in your head otherwise. Although I also love the quote that you shared. I think I need to try and be my own sunshine a LOT more.
    I never asked the other day but whilst reading the Ixia books did you read the Glass ones too or not? So far I’ve only read the first three Study ones (that was all that was released when I read them).
    And I totally relate to do lists getting to you. I think that’s kind of the cause of my reading slump tbh. I made my TBR feel like a to do list and turned reading into a chore and just πŸ™ˆ hopefully I can get passed it. Although atm I’m still playing catch up with everyone’s blog posts. I do hope to pick up a book at some point this weekend though.
    I hope you have a wonderful June πŸ’•

    1. Thank you so much Charlotte! That means a lot πŸ’• Awh that is so kind thank you πŸ™‚ Yes me too I’m very glad, agreed! A problem shared is a problem halved 😊 Yay so glad you loved it! You do that, it’s so important to not always rely on others but to also know that you can be your sunshine in the cloud too β˜€οΈ
      No I actually haven’t but I feel my passion for the books have actually kinda burnt out so once I have finished the Ixia Study series (I’m on the fifth book!) I don’t think I’ll be revisiting it anytime soon πŸ˜‚
      Yes glad (but not glad at the same time) that it isn’t just me! That is the one downside to to-do lists, they can become obsessive and make lifes’ joys such s reading just seem like another thing to tick off a to-do list. Don’t make TBR’s!! I have a vast TBR of about 200 books but I only use it if I’m asking for books for my birthday or doing a book haul, I literally never plan what I’m eating because for me reading isn’t a chore, it’s a joy and I only plan things for life’s chores πŸ˜‚ I hope you do! Good luck catching up with everyone’s posts, hope you have a wonderful June too πŸ’“

      1. Yes that’s so true. Well both of those things are actually ☺️
        Oh right, that’s a shame. I hope the same doesn’t happen to me when I get around to reading the later books. That can sometimes happen with longer series though, especially if you read them all at once.
        Yeah I agree, they’re useful to.keep track of everything but can make fun things seem like nothing more than a task to tick off a list. Yeah that’s so true. I only made mine to keep track of all of the books that I liked the sound of. But then someone asked me how I keep track of all my unread books and I made one for that too. Which was such a mistake. Like I really don’t even need a list for it as I know perfectly well whether I’ve read a book or not πŸ™ˆ
        Thank you πŸ’•

        1. Thank you! Yes I hope so for you haha, yes don’t read them all at once! I’ve literally read this series with 10 books in between each one πŸ˜‚
          Ah yes, couldn’t have said it better myself! Weekly to-do lists have been so much better for me πŸ’– Haha yes, that sounds like a good list! Ooo maybe ditch that list then if it isn’t working for you πŸ™‚ Anytime!

          1. Oh right πŸ˜‚
            Ooh that’s good to know, I’m glad you find them helpful. And I think I did. Or I hid it beneath the rest (the books I want to remember) anyway πŸ™ˆ I think the mindset of having to get them all read is taking a while to shake off. I’m sure I’ll get passed it though ☺️

  6. Congratulations on a 100 followers, Amber!! That is a huge achievement and you absolutely deserve it!! There’s gonna be a lot more coming, too πŸ’•
    It’s also so nice to hear about how you and your friend opened up to each other. Vulnerability in friendships is actually so important because it keeps things open and honest and clear. That’s something that always helps a relationship grow, I feel!
    And also wow, 9.5/10 is huge!! The fact that you got to reach so many of your goals is so great, and actually really motivating to read about, you should be proud of yourself, girl! And little lows here and there will always be a part of life, so what matters is how we move on from them, and I genuinely think you’re doing a great job! 😊 ❀️

    1. Thank you so much Arshia, that means so much to me πŸ’• Awh!! Yes I was so happy when I got the cute little notification and literally jumped around and did a crazy celebratory dance πŸ˜‚
      I’m glad, it really is! A friendship is all based on trust (like most things in life πŸ˜†) and it’s so important to keep it honest. Thank you so much! I’m actually slaying a lot of my goals at the moment and it’s awesome! Hopefully I complete just as many this month ☺️ Thank you so much! I absolutely love motivating people so much πŸ’• Aw I love that so much Arshia, that is so important I needed that, thank you 😊 Ah thanks so much for reading & commenting!! It’s always a pleasure talking to you Arshia πŸ™‚

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